that perhaps i am slowing down on the blogging thing because i don't have that 'team pressure' thing.
what's that, you ask?
well, i was an athlete my whole life - a team sport athlete. a competitive swimmer for 16 years, and one that thrived in the team atmosphere. my favorite part of any swim meet was the relay. i was the backstroker for the medley relay, and that kick-started the meets, the first event.
love team sports. especially amateur team sports - or athletics of any amateur level.
i love knowing that i am part of a collective effort to complete a task. someone is relying on me, and counting on my participation.
i know that doesn't surprise the 5 or 6 loyal readers of this blog, because they know me on a variety of levels. and see, that's the thing - right there - there are only 5 or 6 readers. and that's because i haven't shared my address with more than that. it's the first time in my life that i am private about something. isn't that interesting? i don't even really have my finger on why. (privacy, fear of being out of control of who's really reading, perhaps?? ...)
BUT - if i had people waiting to read my collection of thoughts, and ponderings ... i think i would feel that 'team pressure'. don't get me wrong, this isn't a bad pressure. i thrive in it, remember?
so, i am thinking that sharing my blog, sharing me, sharing my thoughts, and my pieces might be a little motivation to be here more, and create this space more.
not that i am thinking my blog is even on the map for "more people" to even want to be here - but it's the knowledge that someone may be reading my words. can you relate?
:O)
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Sure I can relate! :) I think, though, for me, it needs to be a priority in my life, and... it's just not. I'd rather read other blogs - your blog, etc. - than write mine, sometimes. OTOH, there are moments when I think, "Oh, I really need to blog this!" and sometimes, that's because I want to write it down for ME to remember, and other times, it's because I really want to share it. ;)
I could echo what Nat said. I have a hard time making time to blog, especially because, like most other things, I'm really sloooooow at it. LOL I think knowing that my parents read my blog, and according to my stats, check it rather impatiently when I haven't updated, is the main thing that gets me to blog at times when I don't feel overly compelled to share otherwise. ;)
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