pulling

i can feel it happening. as a family we are pulling ... not pushing anymore. do you know what i mean? pulling together. pulling for each other. pulling to get it done. pulling to be closer. pulling to find a way to "do". pulling.

not pushing.

there are times in my life, as i am sure everyone's life out there, that it feels like i'm pushing everything. days where i'm just up against it. pushing with all my might even when my strength feels like it's all gone. sometimes i'm pushing uphill, sometimes aside, sometimes over, sometimes even through.

but i'm not pushing right now. no one is at this house. it's really nice.

you see, i've had some experience, shall we say, with incredible pushing. especially in the last 9 years and 10 months, give or say a few months there. i'm proud to say that i've been working on my phenominally independent, and yes, intense 'projects' here. my little ones are amazing people. i am deeply in love, there is no denying it. it's a profound level. but .... there is a definite air of independence in this house - and that breeze can pull or it can push you around. being married to a redhead, and birthing two more has taught me that life is a ride. one in which i revel with them. but again, that ride can push and pull. sometimes harder than other times. the pushing that is.

but not now. now there's pulling.

so, with the current state of the country, and life, and things .... and the state of pushing everywhere, i am breathing easier. i am sighing. because, well, because there is only pulling right now. life is chill ..... it's slowed right down.

and i hope it stays this way for a little while longer.


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on another note -

saw this in an email recently .... my cousin will send me these all the time, and i never respond to the email ones. i have no idea why, but i just don't. the deal is to answer the question with one word only.

1. Where is your cell phone? counter

2. Where is your significant other? couch

3. Your hair? messy

4. Your mother? awesome

5. Your father? super

6. Your favorite thing? laughs

7. Your dream last night? pleasant

8. Your dream/goal? health

9. The room you're in? comfy

10. Your hobby? forgotten

11. Your fear? loss

12. Where do you want to be in 6 years? better

13. Where were you last night? hockey

14. What you're not? selfish

16. One of your wish list items? happiness

17. Where you grew up? warmth

18. The last thing you did? kisses

19. What are you wearing? jammies

20. Your TV? annoying

21. Your pet? many

22. Your computer? here

24. Your mood? good

25. Missing someone? always

26. Your car? parked

27. Something you're not wearing? jacket

28. Favorite store? sale

29. Your summer? short

30. Love someone? many

31. Your favorite color? tons

32. When is the last time you laughed? minutes

33. Last time you cried? earlier