that's what i heard as i moved from the house this morning on the backroad to the highway. it was on my cell phone, and it was my little babe. she was crying. she was very upset that i didn't go in this morning to give her a kiss and say goodbye "because you were leaving for a whole day and night, and you usually kiss me goodbye in the morning". i do that, it's true. usually. and i go into both of their rooms. but it's because it's 5:00AM usually and theyaren't even close to waking up. today it was 6:30 AM and the chance existed that i might startle them and wake them for the day, and that's just too early. especially this week when the evenings have been full of activities, and things that have been keeping them both awake 30-60 mins past normal bedtime. she was already awake, though, this morning, waiting for me to kiss her goodbye. and today, of all the days, i didn't go in to kiss her.
dang it.
without so much as a breath, i turned around and flew back to the house to get the much needed (for BOTH of us) hug and kiss. she was waiting for me, barely able to see through the window of the side door. smiling with the light illuminating her hair behind her. she had her jammies on, and her eyes were swollen from sleeping, but also from crying. we stood there, at the door, hugging, and holding each other. she sighed a comfortable sigh, and said, "okay go ahead mommy, you need to go." i asked her if she'd give cam a hug since he wasn't up yet. she readily agreed, but asked me for the hug to give to him. i happily oblidged, afterall. :) and of course, he seems to be needing a hug or thirty these days, with his frustration with 3rd grade and all. so, she was gleefully filled with her hugs, for the extra hugs for her brother, and, of course, her extra mommy-time, and she shut the door, locked the lock, and stood there as i got back into my car, and waved to me - with a big smile, and a beautiful vision of red hair illuminated in that before the sun rises glow as i drove off again.
the little girl with the great big, wonderful, gentle, and loving heart that swells my soul with every emotion on the earth.
1 comment:
Aw, doesn't that stuff just make your mommy-heart both sad and glad, all at the same time? Sad that they're missing you, but glad that it's YOU who can fix it?
Glad it had a happy ending. :D
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