i was gonna .....

....come here and complain about the challenging moments that have been enveloping my head, and stealing precious time from me.

.....tell you about the daily struggles that have been ever-present for a few, er, weeks here.

.....put to words the particularly hair raising arguing that my two cherubic redheaded children appear to be convinced is the *right thing* to do - ahem - regardless of the consistent request from me and sean to end that *wrong thing NOW*

..... let you in on a glimmer of my days as they have been so entertaining, and particularly so.

BUT - the above is not worthy of giving to the blog. certainly, YOU fine folks don't need to be tortured with any of it.

so, i will keep those yummy little nuggets of negative banter to me, and allow you this:

hot shot, potato, isn't she? ;) she is diggin' it a little bit. the competition, as i've mentioned is not her bag. she is all about the social aspect, the fun friends, the enjoyment of the team atmosphere, and "the playing". but the competition - not so much.

she is teaching me all about living like this. i was more competitive. i challenged myself competitively (reaching to improve my best time in the pool, as an example) however, not really competitive with others. the big brother is more outwardly competitive.

she is her own drummer, and dances to the beat that she sets. she isn't waiting for anyone else to set the tone, or the beat. she likes your beat, and she'll listen, but she wants her own, and if you'd like, you can listen to hers, too. she'll share. she'll share just about anything with you. she's got broad shoulders, and a huge heart. she's tough as nails, and as fragile as an egg shell.

they find a way to be the best of friends, and then argue like the worst of enemies. they are so different on so many levels, and so similar on so many others. but - when the earth and the moon are aligned just right, i even get peace and harmony inside my home.

which gives me peace and harmony inside my head.

which makes my heart sing.

and that makes all the bulls*it go away. and then i can come here and write about shiny happy people and things in my life.

{there, i feel so much better}